There are so many things I dream and work towards. I work hard and the tides seem to be in my favour, as I sail smoothly towards my goals. Other times, it takes me very far from it with almost everything going against me.
Times likes those, I totally forget about the many good times I have seen and enjoyed and how close I am to achieving my dreams albeit the hold back. I forget that I have been gifted with even the breath of life whilst others have not been and it is not by any deed of mine but grace.
I wallow and think about the things I could have done or should have done if I could relive the moment. I ponder over these ambitions and wonder why I still held on to them when I was not certain of the end results. I remember the number of people I know who have the things they do not need and why it isn’t me who has them. Maybe, I should have prayed harder or wished, prayed and worked for something else.
Other times I think myself as the most unlucky person on earth who has been jinxed in addition .Then I walk up to the refrigerator for a drink. My ingratitude dawns on me when I realize how spoilt for choice I am after seeing the variety of drinks I have. I notice my environment, the radio announcement of the unfortunate occurrences going on around the world and I am sorry and humbled.
This seemingly little blessing brings me back to my senses. I am blessed to the point of even having a well stocked fridge. Despite all the things I still wish I had/have, I am reminded daily to be grateful and happy.
Sing, barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband.”Isaiah 54:1
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